'... let each other of you speak truth with his neighbor for we are members of one another.'
Transparency doesn't come easy for me. I am doing better today than I have before. I don't have anything to hide...except maybe myself. Transparency is exposing yourself...your weaknesses...your vulnerability...your failures. As a "recovering perfectionist", this is difficult and uncomfortable.
And I get it wrong...a lot! I feel like the woman in the window. You can see me but the window of transparency is broken. There are often times that I am trying to express a thought, a feeling, or a point...and I go about it all wrong. I am a toddler learning to walk. I get it wrong, and I fall down. I will continue to get back up and try it again. I will try not to apologize for being myself...for exposing myself...for exposing my thoughts. But I will try again...and again..because this is important to me.
Please bear with me as I muddle through this that is unknown...this that is uncomfortable...this that feels vulnerable and exposed.
I am a recovering perfectionist as well, so I understand where you are coming from totally. Keep working toward your goal and it will be so sweet when you achieve it!
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