That small still whisper...

I used to hear people talk about God speaking to them. Since this had never happened to me, I couldn't understand it. When I thought about what this "looked/sounded" like, I expected it to be very clear. I expected His voice to sound like James Earl Jones because that just makes sense. He's got that strong voice that sounds like it means business. So, I would pray and wait to hear JEJ's voice....NOTHING! Not even JEJ whispering!

When my husband and I were separated three years ago, I distinctly heard His voice. It didn't sound ANYTHING like James Earl Jones. In fact, if I hadn't been listening, I would have missed it. It truly was a small still whisper. I KNEW that it was Him speaking because I knew that I would never had that thought on my own.

Since then, I have heard God's small still whisper numerous times. I don't think that I am anymore special than anyone else and I don't think that I am any better than the previous "me"...I just think that I am listening for the right voice this time.

A couple of years ago, He kept telling me that I needed to trust Him more. In order to do that, He ask specific things of me...things that did not fit into MY plan. Each time, I would go to Mo and tell him what God was asking of me. Each time, he would say "Ok, well, that really doesn't sound like something that He would ask of you...of us. Are you sure that's what you are hearing because it doesn't make sense?" So, I would go back to God and say "Are you sure because see...I like THINGS! I like STUFF! This thing that you are asking would greatly reduce my ability to have these things."

After I made a great big heaping mess of things, we decided to listen...we decided to be OBEDIENT to His command. What I realized is MY way is not best! Did I just admit that I was WRONG? Yes, I did...I was very wrong! When I use the power of ME, the outcome is never good. His plan, although it may not make sense to me, is always better for me.

Now Mo has come to me saying that God is speaking to Him...asking something even more difficult from Him...from us. My first response is to say "Are you sure that's what you are hearing because it doesn't make sense"? But we have tried that before...and it didn't work out so well.

We are both praying for direction right now. We are both listening for His small still whisper. We are waiting patiently...and being still...for His answer and His guidance. We are praying that He opens the doors needed to bring this command to fruition. Can you pray with us and for us? I know this is very vague but we are trying to understand what He is asking.

All we know is it's gonna be a game changer!